In a recent Dear Abby advice column from 10/26/21, a mother who had been an addict when her daughter was young complains about the guilt trips the daughter always seems to lay on her. Abby’s interpretation as to the possible motives for the daughter’s behavior is the seemingly common-sense one that most people – and most psychotherapists for that matter - would come up with: that the daughter was acting out of selfish needs.
Being the contrarian that I
am, I discovered that selfishness is often actually a cover for altruistic
self-sacrifice, and that the daughter is giving mom what mom seems to need from her. The mother’s obsessive guilt and her repeatedly and nearly constantly trying to fix her daughter
might very well be the reason the daughter is doing this.
Now of course, from just a
paragraph description in a letter I can’t be certain of my interpretation in this
particular case, and there might be several other issues operating simultaneously that might be making this
situation far more complicated than my formulation would suggest. The daughters’
brothers being perceived as the favorites, which is mentioned in the letter, might
be one of them. The mother may have gender issues which might conceivably be
involved. And we
don’t know anything about Mom’s former behavior, let alone her family dynamics
But if we could get the
truth out of these people – always an iffy proposition - I’d be willing to bet that I am at the very
least on the right track. I have put in italics the part of the letter that I
think gives it away. My hypothesis would be my
starting point as her therapist in trying to understand what exactly is going
on, and why.
ABBY: I'm the mother of a 36-year-old daughter. She claims I
treat her younger brothers better than I treat her. I am a recovering addict --
clean for 20-plus years. I was in active addiction for nine years when she was
a teenager, and she has never let that go. She constantly tells me how
"unfair" I am, that I never make time for her and that I don't
validate her feelings. I have apologized many
times and tried to show her I don't treat her siblings differently. I schedule
"us" time, but this is an ongoing battle, and I'm at a loss about how
to fix it. How do I show her there's no difference in the way I treat any of
them? How do I reassure her that her feelings are validated? This has caused me
many tearful nights. -- WANTING SERENITY BACK
In reply Abby
says she thinks this mother “created an emptiness in her daughter “that the mom
may not be able to fill,” and that the daughter is “punishing” the mom for her
former behavior. I submit that the daughter is actually giving Mom what Mom's endless guilt seems to be begging for: More and more guilt! Mom’s obsessive
apologies would then trigger this pattern again and again, leading to the
daughter heaping on more and more guilt leading to more apologies and so on in
a vicious circle.
Each member
of the duo thinks the other one needs this interaction while discounting their
own contribution to the pattern. They have to cover up their own role in order
to continue playing it effectively, both for the stabilization of a parent.
Mom’s history of substance abuse and neglecting children would, under this
scenario, be a role she was playing for her
parents.
This whole theory seems completely backward. Guilt-tripping and "punishing" someone is altruistic self-sacrifice? What is the daughter sacrificing here?
ReplyDeleteIf the mother truly doesn't favor her sons and validates her daughter's emotions, then to me it seems that the daughter is simply having trouble forgiving her for her mistakes and failures in the past. Lack of forgiveness and vengefulness even when the other party has taken responsibility for their behavior, apologized, and worked to change is generally a sign of entitlement (excluding cases where the offender behaved egregiously).
On the other hand if the mother really does play favorites, the daughter is probably not guilt-tripping but rather accurately pointing out an incongruence between the mother's actions and words. And being rightfully upset by this.
A genuine apology and changed behavior means the world to most people when they love someone, especially to a child when they feel they have been treated unfairly.
If it's the former situation I suspect the over-apologizing behavior of the mother is a self-preserving behavior she learned in childhood due to being abused by her own parents. And in such a case I would guess the parents likely had issues with entitlement indicative of a Cluster B Personality Disorder, and the daughter inherited the predisposition for these traits which then got epigenetically triggered by experiencing an unstable childhood.
On the other hand if it's the latter I suspect the mother is probably being dishonest about apologizing multiple times. They might have been more "non-apologies" with continued favoritism directed at the sons.
As you mentioned, we can't be at all certain that the mother is being completely honest about what's going on, and as I mentioned there's a lot of relevant information that we don't know. Your thoughts certainly make sense. But we also don't know what the daughter is referring to when she speaks of mom's invalidation of her.
DeleteAs to the question of the daughter's sacrifice, if the letter isn't leaving out important info, it's a warm relationship with her mother. There may be a lot more. I ask what the daughter is getting out of guilt-tripping the mother if the mother has indeed apologized. I don't really believe that parents and children enjoy torturing each other, even when they do it compulsively. They are actually very ambivalent about it when I got them to open up to me as their therapist.